To vow is to prow

 To vow is to prow into vigorous territory and say i do

Too loud and they’ll hear you up in the clouds and think you're serious

To bring about angst and to fish for compliments and unlady like

But who was i, a tomboy in the making, to think that i'll abide

By rules of failure and mischief and rise

Of a laughter some characterize as hysteria

What if i was a clown in another life such as this

And i was a jester to make everyone's chests pump up such as this

What if another life chose me to be a different representative

Of my body and my mind and i was clued in on my path 

Instead of the hardship that makes bargains arise and prevail

And i sat instead thinking it was a free ride when indeed pricey

And i had no money no courage to speak or to state my grief

I just sat with my hands clasped thinking i was indeed

A good for nothing waste of space that came upon this place

With nothing to give and nothing to take and nothing to will

And nothing to break, i will forever be the goodness i thought

And i was to be mistaken for naught, i was just a treaty of peace

For the ones behind me cause in front i can not see

For the eyes of the blind can not be judgemental

And i hold the candle but i burn myself consistently

And rigorously, i try to not succumb to blows of my mind

Which have proven time and time again to outshine

Any noise that i thought i could make to get them outta my head

But instead, wonder if i could just take them along instead

And be careful with the screams at night cause they give out secrets

That even i don't possess anymore because of their meaning

And even though pandora’s box was meant to be closed forever

I take a sneak into my life to just see if  it still resembles treasure

And it does oh it does, its a path that shone bright

And it has burns on soles and a hot glass knife

And it shines in the room because it’s so hot

So the light of the electrical bolts just ricochet off the walls

They are made of mirrors so it looks much bigger

And i'm made of putty so i melt at the picture

It just looks so majestic and yet scary indeed

This whole mural i created that resembles me

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