it took a while but now im back

 It took awhile but now im back

Let’s say im back cause i dont know what back is

Right on track but how could i be

Right away but where is the way

Right to left but when its backwards it feels so right

Until its forwards then im in flight

But im scared of heights but that i know

But what else am i supposed to know that i dont

Here help me, but i dont say it

Here help me, but i dont take it

I was just stubbornly brought out

And wondered if it was what im about 

Here i lost me but there i stood

And here i took me over the hook

And there i broke into pieces on the ground

They were so small that i couldnt collect them all

That i remember without having a witness

That i remember and then i kissed this

Life goodbye, but what can i do now? start anew?

What is the life that brought me to this point

How can i wander with no need for anything

Why am i a consumer of all things rotten

And what is there to do but live and let live

And go on as a zombie without knowing what words came

Outa my mouth into ur ears, what was i saying what did u hear

Am i on autopilot all these years

Someone should help me but no one cares

And even if i describe the events leading to this 

No one can stop me cause i make the choice

Like i always have, alone and knowing

And knowing is not even a cry for help

Cause knowing makes me stubborn to hold onto this

And trying to get out of it makes me regret

And taking in myself is all that i have

So im stuck and i cant get out of it

Because i dont want to cause its all i have left

And if i divulge and walk through the woods

Into the unknown and see still familiarity

That will be the death of me cause i wasnt expecting this

Im talking to ghosts again but they are the only ones that get me

Im talking to ghosts again, im walking around the room

But it isnt my room so i escape to my head

And in there is the room that i see myself in

And there it is, the planet the streets the walkways

The curves the losses the wins the everything is still alive

And im happy and unfocused

Im resourceful and not lonely

Im ignorant and walking with a purpose

Im taken by everything yet nothing can catch me

Im whispering but everything can hear me calling

And answers me, but now i wake up

All i hear is an echo of something that was