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 Hey y'all so this chapter is pretty remarkable because I felt like I was in the mind of Milly finally. Mike, her foster dad, finally had a therapy session with her and let her mind wander back to what happened with her mom. Things that I thought were made clearer: Abuse? Rape? Control?  Maybe with the new Daniel name, this was done to others, whatever it was, and Milly had to participate without will. Also the new statement about her name when the foster mother, Saskia, gave her the necklace and Milly thought, it's not Anne.  Anne. Daniel. Who are these people? Either way, both foster parents are painted as caring and wonderful, with Milly being so broken and fragile in her mind. Phoebe just sounds like a snob, but maybe not. Maybe she's just jealous and wants the same first time at me home attention as Milly is getting.  Either way, these memories that flood Milly's brain when she doesn't have to go to school, to rework how she responds to actions that previously ...

 So, here we are in school, Or i thought it was school but it was actually Milly's memory. The way she described her mother was fascinating. But as I got on with the paragraphs it started sounding like Stockholm syndrome. Wanting to go away from her, police, and at the same time wanting to spend the last night with her and still loving her. Totally textbook. Either way, now I got more into Milly's brain and understood that her mother had provided for her and been a mother as well as whatever else monster that she had to be to go to jail.  The point to this memory was to unlock the lessons Milly's mother taught her to end up dealing with the bullies in school.  Next scene was the bullying and the slap in the face,  all too familiar because of how Milly reacted. She just felt the same abuse that she got from mother, but it made her stronger. She did give the phone, bow down, but only to get a better prize in return. A courageous persona. And once that persona is unleas...

 I couldn't breathe. This chapter made me feel so many feelings. The teacher, once emerged in the paragraphs, was like a familiar phase in my life. Soon as I read it, I remembered Mrs DelGuidice. I still remember how to spell her name. The one that felt like a mother outside my house. Miss Kemp was the that to Millie in that moment. Even though "hippy" , completely in tune with who did what. But, at least in my case, the girls stayed at the school and didn't follow me home. Phoebe lives with Milly and this would be quite different. Either way, this chapter brought out some feelings, even some smells, that I remembered and that jotted down into my memory and released a core memory that I have kept dear throughout the years. There have only been a handful of teachers in my life that have made me have this feeling usually teachers would be just that and back in the 90s and the early 2000s I don't know if it was that different, but teachers were not that in tune with ...

 Hey all. So I've been reading Good Me Bad By Ali Land and I'm at chapter 4 so far. Decided to do a chapter by chapter review.  Initially I grabbed this book because of the blurb. Since I myself am from a pretty rough childhood, it resignated with me to a level that I thought "grab it grab it!" Which is usually what pulls me to any book either way.  The blurb is the most important part. Also the first line of the book, but if you can't see that part, the blurb is what you go for.  So anyway, since I was able to see the first few lines, I quickly snagged the book to the register, which is what I do, a cashier at a supermarket, and started reading. Literally, if I could be, I'd be that old man from the Twilight Zone episode that kept reading and reading and even went to the bunker to read when the world exploded, and then came out to see that everything was destroyed, just to find a bunch of books. I won't ruin the whole episode, but yea , books equals life....