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good me Bad Me chapter 6 review

 Hey y'all so this chapter is pretty remarkable because I felt like I was in the mind of Milly finally. Mike, her foster dad, finally had a therapy session with her and let her mind wander back to what happened with her mom. Things that I thought were made clearer:

Abuse? Rape? Control? 

Maybe with the new Daniel name, this was done to others, whatever it was, and Milly had to participate without will. Also the new statement about her name when the foster mother, Saskia, gave her the necklace and Milly thought, it's not Anne. 

Anne.

Daniel.

Who are these people?

Either way, both foster parents are painted as caring and wonderful, with Milly being so broken and fragile in her mind. Phoebe just sounds like a snob, but maybe not. Maybe she's just jealous and wants the same first time at me home attention as Milly is getting. 

Either way, these memories that flood Milly's brain when she doesn't have to go to school, to rework how she responds to actions that previously were negative, but now just learn to trust, is very telling and familiar to all that have suffered abuse. It's that inch of your head coming out of the dark to peak into the light. It's to see if the light is too bright and you have to hide or the light is bright enough to make you leave your bad past behind.  Obviously the past will not leave you, not fully, but opening your mind and heart to kind people is definitely a no brainer. 

In Milly's case though, it's going to be tough. The trial is coming up, and though I never went through that, I did have to go to court, so I know about how they could sway your words around to make you sound like you're wrong. 

Hopefully the next chapter isn't this heavy, even though we obviously need that to get into the brain of Milly. And the heart. 

Stay tuned!







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