every day every me

 Signs- everywhere open my eyes  sighs- are they real or lies?  Blind, can't see or hear better off  hide- what use am I to me laugh off  all the crap slap on the wrist never comes  the repercussions are worse  of course you grow older I saw too much  touch the surface of destiny  felt like I lived it all but was it another life  felt to me like real life so why  live it if I already knew the pleasures  and outcomes speed and urgency  thinking there's a prize at the end of  complacency or the end of understanding  meant to mend My wounds  but they didn't come about for I did not  live at all live at all memories of shame  hidden as a talent to self alone  broken cords of life that led me to a highways of impossible possibilities  they are allowed unlike your caged  feeling seething in fortitude of signs  you I can't decipher might I be a fighter  once more a tryer braver ki...

 Lonely road  I am tired I am up  I was up but I fucked up I am fire I am ice  I can't see with both my eyes I only see lies,I pronounce me dead  I'm numb to all that's in my head Bled it out and saw no purpose Compose on sense, nonsense Blonde moments, focus is gone Loneliness took over fully Bully myself and rule me into the Outlook Of newness, blew the opportunity And saw none ever again, blame it on sense Blame it on games I don't know rules to anymore Candy store of my life, aching more Blaming for the intensity of situations Relations out the window And famous to be in the rear of my mirror, such dreams That I could never again get to Meant to but forgot the road Then hoped that it turned into itself on its own  Roads didn't do that, they are steared Feared that the direction is wrong So I stopped the wheel, took out the key And threw it so far that I couldn't remember the placement Enhanced the erasement. Statement of the century Blaming me for my ow...

 One touch edge, one time sledge, into  Trenches you fall  What a day you take away all the climbing from all Into the fence I break all collisions decisions seem to be out the door floor was so slippery dipping me into gross circumstance wish I said I hate What I like so much I thought a Crutch was too obvious to you that I was in pools of tears for most of my life I'm A lush for oblivious obstruction  Induction in the hall of conjunctions Blunt is so much of a Way that I stayed in the middle  Waiting for crashes to fiddle with my life line Blind now but how is it so hard to convince myself it's ever gonna end? I guess I'll try again  Blended with mockery of my life Like I was ever right Guess I'll try to stand with bended knees in sand Looking for a sink hole to throw in my all ...

 Willing to be dangerous  hanging around surrounding  that only beat up my intuition  intentions be damned i sign. in the sand the SOS is the same  but no one to see the message of despair  oh contraire ur ship is calling  but it's afloat no longer it screams for color  it sees no other it's coming ashore  no one to help anymore  it's just u and the moon and the sun and the ground  it can be the leaves talking but u hear no sound  u just keep on walking keep talking  and joking about how ur life became a token  of gracious and diligent design  to come screwed up on ways you couldn't imagine  and running for cover was not in the memo  u thought u could let go  u thought breaking free  was all it was my need to be mended  was met with demands and I shudder  and u stutter and stop at a drop  of a coin you  were born to feel illness  and choke on the rope. 

 Some day somehow Understand then. find your  rebound. Find ur voice fine it sound so loud u can't see what u are you can only see the best ways of doing things u used to do without thinking listen to reason and go in the wrong direction hesitant and blinded by all the woke people the spoke people the rope heaves u up to the heavens and tighten ur view on the world never looking. Back but sooth ur stack of hypervigilent outcomes loud as you can be but now the loud voice is unheard and whispered are savoured flavor of the sound you need to be gentle no more reason to fling about ur outcome of trauma just some of the blinding reveals that you are wha u were given in life and it appetite seized cause it was unflavorable seeable edible you couldn't even chew up ur emotions they screwed em up for you and left u dumbfounded surrounded by uneasy circumstances chances were taken away and flinching was to ur dismay a common occurrence pure as can be with darkest of clouds hanging abo...

 Here we are here's life  in the instinct of the strife  here's a knife to go all out  here's the claim that you're better than this  no I'm not I'm a disgrace  I'm in your face I'm out of space  and into yours can't be sorry  when I have no idea what I'm sorry for  can't combine my apology with agony  with symphony of chaos in my brain  claim there's more to me  shame I lost my memory  while sitting on the toilet with my raincoat on  letting everything around me crazy  oh what a life we claim we fight  we say we try but do we really  or just do enough things before we say goodbye  hi here into this mockery of Life  high above the words of Savior calls  above the instinct to revolt  above the sirens in the distance  at least in my brain chaos always ensues  Enfolds me and controls me  forgive me my very  uncanny something that led to missing nothing's  a fort...

  STANDARDS Planned it, standard for procedure That peaked your interest, listed and listen Like i’m a snake with ears like an elephant Cant tell if it be a curse or a blessing  To know it all, at once a breathing being Feeling like i’m trying too hard Maybe i should back and let everything unfold In front of my sight As long as  i have it, will it be the best But i, can’t trust my vision for ages ago What’s in front of me and what i know Different things indeed, steed of a gallop Hall of marching standards,  Masters to slaves, i brought you a clue about you And probably gonna regret it Soon as i turn the corner, the mourner is not you It’s true, but it’s a loop of unconscious decisions Permissions granted from the fuming “bring-on”s That clouded the tinctures, once brought to Cure the folly of the holy and The rotting of the lonely  Now moreso used for regret, regression of sorts More amplified towards the many that beat the hungry The faking of standards That ...

  Winter’s May and splinters stay Winners cave and here’s the stray Sinking into my skin of mine Leaving private world behind Here we go, on the loose to the zoo Of heroic expectations of our nation Of colliding collaboration that can’t be right No, wrong wrong wrong! All we do all the time Babies to adults, we are in constant rhyme We are in constant prevail, in our skin a masked veil What you is what you believe, but not in your mind What you fear is lonely, what you think is holy What we want is solely a chance to have our say But it will never come, the day we do it will be Laughable, tolerable, compressed to equal naught What you forgot is pleasure and the ability to think free What you remember is just step forward and be Like all that are around thee Therefore protected from blasphamy And routed towards energies that propel you forward But won’t you want the day back When May was spring and flowers  bloomed The only things around that can sing to their own tune And even...

  What would you do what would you say if it was today If it was the day if it was the triumph you were looking for all along All the songs all the sweet things all you ever wanted Was to give you all the pleasure you once yearned for I’ll tell u what you would do cause you don't have a clue You never had it u never will u were part of a toying of sorts A loitering of feelings that made you believe in Nothing that something was coming but nothing ensued U were subdued and i was out of breath And i just had to practice for a penny less U were not a case that was gonna survive Why would you try? Jus get up and revive U were not a case u were a whole entire world That made itself so small that u couldn't even see That u meant so much to me u meant so much to them U flung yourself at arms length into oceans bare And worshipped the wrong crowd, found ur way out And thought it was me, that fed you the signs But follow as you might you were bound to be a leader Of u of them or anyone ...

 Where blood meets bone Every night I lay to rest  but resting never comes  instead the best thing that's succumbs  to me to I to free to fly  every second is the best  when I bestow upon it wishes  for a calm this long forgotten  for not I have found it it's taunting  laughing at me day in Day out  Stout of mouse drip a lip and say the word  everyone's heard it I'm addicted  to a feeling and it saves me every time  just go deep in your repetitive dreams  it feels better when nothing new happens  the same trapped door the same empty streets  so dark the lore, so risky feats  so always cried the sky's above that go  for infinity and not an inch less  those mountains so high the clouds so dark  the judgment of the atmosphere  so lonely and commotion is so stagnant in devotion  so me so you so in between where blood meets bone  when air meets wind where foot meets ground where...

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