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Sitting on the toilet with my raincoat on

 Here we are here's life 

in the instinct of the strife

 here's a knife to go all out 

here's the claim that you're better than this 

no I'm not I'm a disgrace 

I'm in your face I'm out of space 

and into yours can't be sorry 

when I have no idea what I'm sorry for 

can't combine my apology with agony 

with symphony of chaos in my brain 

claim there's more to me

 shame I lost my memory 

while sitting on the toilet with my raincoat on

 letting everything around me crazy

 oh what a life we claim we fight

 we say we try but do we really

 or just do enough things before we say goodbye

 hi here into this mockery of Life

 high above the words of Savior calls 

above the instinct to revolt 

above the sirens in the distance 

at least in my brain chaos always ensues 

Enfolds me and controls me

 forgive me my very

 uncanny something that led to missing nothing's

 a fortune for some

 but I swim in my brain

 I slipped into my veins

 never to be seen again 

as I was before

 she's gone right out the door 

wishing for the world 

that knew her a tiny bit more 

but alas there is none now

 so she escaped into a dark cloud

 that hangs above my head every day 

as if to say I'm here with you somehow

 just only on the gloomy days 

when whispers turn to shouts 

and inches turn to Miles 

when creatures come on out

 to say hi with wicked smiles 

here it is I'm home, less alone

 and with friends that understand

 that life don't make you bend 

it makes you snap!








































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