every day every me

 One touch edge, one time sledge, into  Trenches you fall  What a day you take away all the climbing from all Into the fence I break all collisions decisions seem to be out the door floor was so slippery dipping me into gross circumstance wish I said I hate What I like so much I thought a Crutch was too obvious to you that I was in pools of tears for most of my life I'm A lush for oblivious obstruction  Induction in the hall of conjunctions Blunt is so much of a Way that I stayed in the middle  Waiting for crashes to fiddle with my life line Blind now but how is it so hard to convince myself it's ever gonna end? I guess I'll try again  Blended with mockery of my life Like I was ever right Guess I'll try to stand with bended knees in sand Looking for a sink hole to throw in my all ...

 Willing to be dangerous  hanging around surrounding  that only beat up my intuition  intentions be damned i sign. in the sand the SOS is the same  but no one to see the message of despair  oh contraire ur ship is calling  but it's afloat no longer it screams for color  it sees no other it's coming ashore  no one to help anymore  it's just u and the moon and the sun and the ground  it can be the leaves talking but u hear no sound  u just keep on walking keep talking  and joking about how ur life became a token  of gracious and diligent design  to come screwed up on ways you couldn't imagine  and running for cover was not in the memo  u thought u could let go  u thought breaking free  was all it was my need to be mended  was met with demands and I shudder  and u stutter and stop at a drop  of a coin you  were born to feel illness  and choke on the rope. 

 Some day somehow Understand then. find your  rebound. Find ur voice fine it sound so loud u can't see what u are you can only see the best ways of doing things u used to do without thinking listen to reason and go in the wrong direction hesitant and blinded by all the woke people the spoke people the rope heaves u up to the heavens and tighten ur view on the world never looking. Back but sooth ur stack of hypervigilent outcomes loud as you can be but now the loud voice is unheard and whispered are savoured flavor of the sound you need to be gentle no more reason to fling about ur outcome of trauma just some of the blinding reveals that you are wha u were given in life and it appetite seized cause it was unflavorable seeable edible you couldn't even chew up ur emotions they screwed em up for you and left u dumbfounded surrounded by uneasy circumstances chances were taken away and flinching was to ur dismay a common occurrence pure as can be with darkest of clouds hanging abo...

 Here we are here's life  in the instinct of the strife  here's a knife to go all out  here's the claim that you're better than this  no I'm not I'm a disgrace  I'm in your face I'm out of space  and into yours can't be sorry  when I have no idea what I'm sorry for  can't combine my apology with agony  with symphony of chaos in my brain  claim there's more to me  shame I lost my memory  while sitting on the toilet with my raincoat on  letting everything around me crazy  oh what a life we claim we fight  we say we try but do we really  or just do enough things before we say goodbye  hi here into this mockery of Life  high above the words of Savior calls  above the instinct to revolt  above the sirens in the distance  at least in my brain chaos always ensues  Enfolds me and controls me  forgive me my very  uncanny something that led to missing nothing's  a fort...