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Lonely road

 Lonely road 


I am tired I am up 

I was up but I fucked up

I am fire I am ice 

I can't see with both my eyes

I only see lies,I pronounce me dead 

I'm numb to all that's in my head

Bled it out and saw no purpose

Compose on sense, nonsense

Blonde moments, focus is gone

Loneliness took over fully

Bully myself and rule me into the Outlook

Of newness, blew the opportunity

And saw none ever again, blame it on sense

Blame it on games I don't know rules to anymore

Candy store of my life, aching more

Blaming for the intensity of situations

Relations out the window

And famous to be in the rear of my mirror, such dreams

That I could never again get to

Meant to but forgot the road

Then hoped that it turned into itself on its own 

Roads didn't do that, they are steared

Feared that the direction is wrong

So I stopped the wheel, took out the key

And threw it so far that I couldn't remember the placement

Enhanced the erasement. Statement of the century

Blaming me for my own word

Bruise myself to lick myself clean

Seemed like a good idea at the time

But rhyme my life to the same line

Ain't gonna make it the way I thought I'd take it

By the time I had energy I forgot the route

The truth, the new became old

And the sayings were the ones that shouldn't have been told

Or, fell to the wrong ears and interpreted as verses

That aged poorly, choices that changed surely

Voices that were laced with mourning

And suddenly I'm floating into times I don't understand

I'm bland when I used to be bold

I'm standing when I used to hold and hoard all the treasures

Now dunno how to use them

In a world that for sure will abuse them 

Need they find this out, they break through the crowd

And learn to announce all the secrets

Can't keep it as personal as it used to be

Fall into wrong hands and squished into oblivion

Evaporate myself into negativity

So hard to see what used to mean to me

Something, I'm falling back into nothing

And blinking it away slowly

Hop

ing desperately to find my way back from lonely road

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