so very calmly it went ablaze poem

 So very calmly  it went ablaze

My heart amazed my silence phased

I was endeared i thought so near

How could some one come, its not possible

But here you are, you took my hand

It was so cold and you made it warm

Or so you thought, im still the same

Seek me out and im still a flame

 I was the fire, you are right to get burned

I was not ready, u wait your turn

I wasnt here, i thought you wanted

Something so dear, but you just pummeled

Down into the saddened flesh

I was your partner, i am not a mess

I stand up tall but i still see you in my dreams

I stand and slouch a little when i could feel

That ur comfort is near, i just want it so bad

I could hear that the hug and the kiss are coming

I could tell that i should start running 

But which way to go i never know

I want it so bad, i just know that i do

And when i get it, it makes all the blue, go away

And here i come, looking for your eyes

That are filled with truth and sight

And my eyes, that just want to close from everything

Around, but you, i just want to feel the real

And the real is you, and the realest comes out of you

Who else would it be that tied me to myself?

And made me look inward instead of out where i cant see

What is really there but what i think is there

But who else could have taken my trauma

And shoved it right in front of me to face it

No one but the bravest

And that one is you, and not me.

That one is always gonna be you, cause i know you had it 

Done to you, and im never gonna be able

Cause im here, to save my cognition

From thinking of you and just having you

All to myself through the heaven and hell

You know ur words mean everything they could ever be

But they are never meant for me.

What to explain when all is said already

But just to seek shelter in the confidence of you

And my arrows will fall and my shots will remain

Unfired, and the forest wont burn down cause 

I have you now

I wont be aiming for destruction cause my collection is complete

With you and me,

I will aim to only please.

And here i was doing all that, 

It was everything i thought would happen plus

Happened to be just something that rattled my brain

An unknown reaction to both of us, that startled the wits out of

Us, and nothing was ever the same so now

Shall we rebuild a fortress that was once so lovely

And make it into everything because we

Already know what will make it fall

And stand around it to guard it cause it’s our all?

Shall we permit all the guarding to be done

And we could just have fun?

What have you to say of this?

Can we belong to our undying kiss?