On A Roll poem

 Here we go we’re on a roll, everything is coming together now

But here we are coming down, i thought we were coming up

I was at the peak of my trust but you just, no hold up it was me

No hold up u say its we, well i dont know if i could ever be

A part of this conspiracy to go against me and u 

Because believe it or not, i forgot who i was attacking when i looked at u

Today, not because of all the stress, cause that counts less than

Anything at this point, its cause i love you the realest way

And i wont change ur mind you say, and i wont be changed over one day

So we have to step back and think, was it really worth the risk

At establishing all this

Do u know how crazy that sounds, after u hold me and lay me down

And make it seem like its gonna last, when future is tomorrow’s past

And what u learned will stay with u, ur not in the moment ur in the blue

Sky, ur flying high, ur lookin around and cant think. Well neither can i

So how can we communicate if both of us seem to retaliate

Fine take a second, take two or three,

But i know the fourth second ull come back to me

So why take the risk to leave at all

I will, i swear, lose everything and all

I made it seem too easy to me, to look at u and here i am free

To say what i want but ur right, human beings have thoughts of their own

And im here inputting my slightest remark, and taking ur words to be

The world, cause ur words mean so much to me, effortlessly ,

That when they scream into my head, i cant take anything you say

I cant take it and push it away cause i want it to be everythings alright

But instead mess it up, right? Mess it up and mess with my head

Shake myself open until im dead, im out in the street im watching u 

All the time, im caving into each rhyme, im thinking theres enough

Of our love to save us, im thinking thinking and im feeling feeling

Im really going off of what im seeing,and not actually touching

But here it comes, the touch that makes my whole body feel alive

And everything alright even if just for a moment, words are effort then

Words make no sense, words are everything we dont need right now

We need to make this… about us and not about them, we need to make

This, a consciousness, a full on body thing,  a you and me laying

And cuddling, a really sorry thing that can not be said but felt

And once its felt the answer will come, we need to stick together and do it for us

Especially since the fight is not in our hearts

The fight isnt even between us.