Baby sitter poem

 BABYSITTER

4.16.24

When you go up against yourself

It’s a laugh, a smile, in the concrete

That you hide from yourself to the pity

And need me is all you can remember but can you

For once rely on you? For you are the most

Reliable of all that sits with arms folded

Hanging onto past neediness like it’s the

Mesmerizing stance of today, but you’re free

To be, to see, to view, to lean in and not be

Pulled back to the past, instead you

Crawl with your bloody fingers, clasp at the walls

That speak lies about your beginning, putting 

Yourself into a constant state of amnesia

But keep your head above water, the body will

Follow, swallow your instincts to make them void

Choice is now allowed and crowned are you

As the ruler of your destiny, no more walking

Along side, bride, you escape the alter

And stride far from the path that ran clear

Through your veins for you to follow, allow yourself

To wallow in discredited dismay that clung to the 

Fortunes of the future, if it was that simple

Everything would unknowingly be connected, but you

Ended a blending that felt so pure, so magical

It can make you feel tragical but you did not

Lose within yourself, you lost a virginity of the mind

And became mature, everything else is a blur

Cured are you of empathy, listed through tragedy

Maddening, but standing still you can feel the wind

Whisper to your griefs,that you hold close

Preventing growth that delayed your happiness

It’s so easy, just let go of apathy to it, trapped in it

By your own key, fling it to me

I know how to turn it and overturn beliefs

That broke you into pieces and left you stumbling to me

Back to me, be tied to a leash of your pretend destiny

That carved itself out before you grew

Before you knew that dying alone was actually the

Absolute truth, no one coming for you and you

Can’t save the ones that let go of you, they are to

Whisper in the walls all thought that made a mess

But you progress. Please progress.